It seems 2008 has been sneaking up on me for 2 months now and I'm just starting to catch up to it. My mind has been such a mess for the past few months, actually since around Sept 2007 would be more accurate. That's close to the time my hold on reality,finances,health, and basically everyday life started to unravel. If I woke up remembering my name I felt that I had accomplished something amazing. I'm still not quite sure if the self I'm waking to these days is the actual me or maybe a doppleganger of myself that has slipped unknowingly into my life. I am sure though that it's time I take this self I'm waking up to in hand and very clearly tell her what I'm expecting her to accomplish this year, whether it's the real me or not. I guess we'll see how far I get with this approach in the next month, either everything I've struggled with for over a year now will be resolved or I'll be once again making huge changes in my life, and unfortunately my son's life also. My main goal for the immediate future is to keep supplying him with some form of stability, which is the goal that seems to always feel just out of reach.